25th April 2015
Don't dream of getting repay in every investment.
I know.
Start to apply all kind of scholarships once I got the spm result.
I told my dad
This is INVESTMENTS.
Luckily my family is very supportive in what I want to do
Get the chop sign
Go for the interview no matter how far it is
Prepare attire for interview
Post my application
All need MONEY n TIME
I feel really grateful to have such parents who can do everything for me.
Daddy went for a surgery last Sat
I was the first one to know that Daddy get bladder cancer and guess what
My tears actually rolled out from my eyes immediately.
Plus I failed my jpj test again that morning.
I felt like that was the worst day ever.
My dad was strong enuf to cheer me up.
Yes of coz the fees was so huge that I actually thought of forgetting the idea to go for a college even there is scholarship for me(the living fee is so high) and I thought the concert is an impossible for me again.
Luckily,the surgery was very successful but still need to wait for the report.
24th April is the last hope for the investments.
But sorry dad n mum
I win nothing.
I failed to get The Star Edufund n JPA.
I don't know what you think about all these results.
But still
I don't dare to apologize to you.
I know that you won't blame me and will even comfort me and that's why.
I cried in my heart.
I felt myself so useless.
I can't overcome my difficulty in facing strangers.
I get nervous easily and my sound was trembling during SAC and interview.
I spend a lot of money recently.
I can't even pass the jpj test.
I know I should talk with parents with a better attitude but I just easy to get frustrated recently.
I feel really bad.
What should I do?
People are already enjoying their new life or preparing to go but what am I doing
Facing the phone everyday until late night
Waking up in afternoon
FBing IGing playing chatting eating sleeping or pt tutoring
What's else
Fangirling
Making dessert
It's all I can do.
I had tried to apply for a sampling promoter but they are not gonna contact me anyway.
I hate being spinebreaker.
5W1H for my new life.
And lastly
Sorry daddy and mummy that I didn't win anything after so much efforts of us.
Thanks for accompanying me along the way.
With love.
花样年华。
